Born Feb 9th, 2017 at 7:03 p.m. weighing 6 lbs 8 oz and 19 inches long. Where do I start? I’m a mom! The past two weeks have flown by and I’ve been overcome by so many different emotions. Silas is sleeping next to me and I can’t believe how beautiful our son is. I’ve cried so many happy tears since he was born. I guess this is how it feels when your hope becomes a reality. We spent months (here’s a peek at his nursery) and years preparing for him and he’s finally here. I can still remember the first time I got to hold him. It felt like a dream. How did this beautiful life grow inside of me and I’m holding him in my arms? I’m so glad Ned took videos of that moment because I replay it over and over again and cry every time. I’m not sure if it’s the postpartum hormones or the overwhelming amount of love I’ve felt that causes me to cry, but I’m allowing myself to feel it all.
Silas is two weeks old today and we thought it would be appropriate to share some of our sweet moments with him. Ned and I made the decision to stay off social media so we can fully enjoy the first hours, days, and weeks of our son’s life. I would highly recommend this to every new parent. This has allowed us to bond as a family and be intentional about our time together with no distractions. We’ve also loved seeing our family and friends meet Silas, seeing his face in person, for the very first time. Caring for a newborn is all consuming and we wanted to soak it all in and be fully present for him.
I couldn’t be more proud of my husband. Ned has a way of accomplishing things he sets his mind to and teaches me everyday to have a positive mindset. Did I mention Ned is an amazing dad to Silas? During my recovery Ned changed all of Silas’ diapers, learned to swaddle him like a pro, and console him when he cried uncontrollably. Ned has been right by my side the past two weeks and I couldn’t have done this without him.
Silas was in our hearts over two years ago. We’ve prayed, hoped, and cried over this baby and we would be silly not to enjoy every part of the journey. I consider it an honor to be raising a world changer!
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a desire fulfilled is a tree of life.
Our little Silas is going to be a tree of life. We will choose to love him and pour life into him as he grows. Our life is definitely different with him in it. We wouldn’t want it any other way. There is less sleep and less of our agenda but there’s certainly more opportunities to serve this child we intentionally brought into our lives. It’s never gonna be the same. A switch has been activated and rather than have fear of loss or change, I’m choosing expectancy. And mostly our hearts are a filled to the brim with the overflow of love from our community. We’re forever grateful for the kindness we’ve experienced through this process.
May our Heavenly Daddy’s blessings be upon you and your family just as He has overwhelmingly blessed us. You are worth it.